fly

to whom do i owe this pleasure?
tucked away
inside
and underneath.

just knowing the right areas
to where the fingers reach.

he knows how to lure me....in
without a doubt.

plays my instrument
beyond what others
wish they could do with their mouths.

crisis...moment...
if things don't change soon
it will be the end
of our tune.

maybe moving you towards a better attitude
and myself
a lifetime of solitude.

never knowing
or growing
or holding
to ourselves
be true.

just focusing on the now. the moment.
he plays the song
inside you.

the brink

my mind's been going through these changes.
Weighing out the pros...the cons.
which is heavier?
which could make me happier?
which could push me farther towards who and where i want to be?
everything happens for a reason.
life, a series of tests.
test of love.
test of strength.
fear being it's foundation.
fear and faith.
Which would you take?
when love's right in front of you, do you walk away?
and when pain is the hand you're dealt, do you play the game?

not sure which road to take.
praying for the will to make the right decision.
hoping to erase the way i could see ___ now.

expectation causes misery.
constantly
living through someone else's portrait
of the "perfect" life.

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